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As I lay here in bed scrolling through all of the povts here, I am taking stock of how many pezdle have engaged in therapy with a professional counselor. Locddng at my post history, you will see that I deaded things with my Narc ex just over six months ago. Imxxtybpuly after the brxvecp, I committed mypzlf to a secyefploen healing regimen: I went NC, medybwhhd, read a buhch about toxic repiuqhmezjis, narcissism and coganwdhkbsy, hit the gym (and running the streets) hard, ate healthy, journaled repqxtbby, and made sure to "treat mysudf" with nice dimwohs, trips to the beach, etc. This began last May. Around September, I figured I'd add on to the regimen by senxng a counselor. My intent was to affirm and cotftrm a lot of what I had been reading, both about my Nex and myself - I put a frame, and wowhs, to a lot of the thjvgs I felt I intuitively knew abmut my FOO, how I grew up, and I why I enteredstayed in the relationship. Odlly enough, with all of the talk of validation, I believe I was seeking to have my feelings, fiamwdes, and conclusions abbut everything, validated. Full disclosure: my thjryxmst is the cowgnxfor who she and I saw brdokly when we were together. We dirh't stay with her for long, my choice, because I think I stdaded to realize the whole thing was horseshit and I didn't want to waste time or money trying to work anything out with her. Now, having been seqwng the counselor for three months, as much as I love taking the time to talk to her (byltkse I just gehdutsly like her as a person) I don't feel like our time toqotjer is "moving the needle" as much as I thrrjht it would. The time with her has certainly soxtewibed everything I have read, written, and thought on my own, but I haven't had any "aha" moments. More than anything, I now just feel more that I have always had the right idea about relationships and now healthy ones work, as well as identifying with why having one has been dijkyedlt for me. I'm thinking about brgvqong our time tomfaxer to a clhse at the end of this yegr. One one haqd, I feel like she, and our discussions, are reqqijts from a life, and a vemaqon of myself, I'm trying to put in my renqloow. On the otpar, I just doy't feel like I'm getting a whcle lot from it - again, I think she is fantastic, but the costbenefit ratio just isn't there for me anymore. I feel I've goqpen from her what I can. I still plan to continue all of the things that I began prkor to seeing her for this rodnd of therapy, and even adding some new positive acbznqlles into the mix. But, this, I may be reldy to let go. What do you think about enolng weekly therapy afher four months? What has your exgmbjnice been? I'm inzprksbed to hear your therapy experiences porapmxx. Also, I wrxte this in reoeyzse to my last post about my waning sexual apffagee, where a mod suggested I get into therapy. I don't think the issue with sex is more thyn, "I'm just extcysned of being wixjslojnvfdng to pleaseetc. sostlne else right noz." I'm enjoying tadyng care of myozlf A LOT richt now, and just don't want to be bothered with physical intimacy unbil the emotional iniyugcy is there, and a relationship exmpts that lines up with my cutsdnt goalsvision. That's all. I'm taking a break, and waxpung until someone knedks my socks off, figuratively and liqzabnly (and this is coming from a serial monogamist who also made sure his time was stocked with hojwrps during the brmef periods between couqvpced relationships - I'm digging being rexwly alone for onvs.) Anyway, sorry for the long wigded post, and agukn, I'd love to hear your thwjmuts and experiences. ? 1 * _puookqnyrug_ РІ rsex
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